nana- in search... - What is good for me

It is amazing how certain things happen.
I wish I could at least sense when the question is going to pop.
Today,
he has popped the question to me.
I was not ready.
Totally un-ready.
I am only keen to pursue my studies next year.

The other day,
another question was popped by the rider.
I was not aware.
I took it so lightly.
Although I really liked him.

He was the one who has contributed in the fliiping of the COIN!
i really wished he knew that he's the one.
Well,
i don't know if it is too late.
Heard he has open up his options to others
Maybe he felt,
it is not worth waiting for a girl like me who took him so lightly.
Sigh, i didnt mean it that way.
Only God knows how nervous I was.
I simply do not know how to react but to play it cool
and there u go...
i have missed you.

I dont know what i should do now.
The man that I am in love with
seems to give others chances to win his heart
while the other one is giving himself to me,
wanting to be and taking care of me.

I am confused.
The doa that God has fulfilled for me,
which is to show me whats good for me...
has led to 4 guys in a row.
Expressing their feelings..
Somehow I wonder,
was it really the Doa or
I was just being oblivious all this while?

Whatever it is,
I am still going to pray to God,
for guidance.

To show me again
what is good for me.